Monday, January 7, 2013

The Whining of a Hometowner

On a walk two Sundays ago where I saw 2-coworkers & 4 college friends.
I live in a very popular enclave of Portland where many people just like me live. The 'just like me' refer to the Kidless, 40-hour-a-week working blokes who need coffee shops they can always reach on foot (I live on top of one) in the morning; a gym they can saunter to in the afternoon and a nightlife they can seize without calling a cab or driving. That's where I live: a bustling hybrid community of small-town neighborhood meets Downtown Swag meets Bars/Shops/Eateries. It's great: save for one little caveat.

I can't go anywhere without knowing someone. Anywhere. This is inherently my fault due to my whole 'growing up here' thing- but sometimes (at the risk of sounding anti-social): I just don't want to see anyone I know. Anyone. Nada. Zip.

Not because I don't like to talk to people or say a friendly 'hello' to acquaintances in my life, or due to the fact that I don't have interest in what Jane Doe from my Sorority is doing, no, no...: it's just that sometimes I want the quiet. I want the time with my thoughts. I want to diffuse my bad day with a walk and not have to play the "I'm great! How are you?" game when really, I'm feeling low.  I want to not answer 20 questions about my career or stop mid-jog to meet my 9th-grade friend's boyfriend. Or be interrupted in the middle of my pub/window seat/crossword puzzle/Wheat Ale time so I can discuss the weather (that is my post-workout 'me' time).

Not always, but sometimes- just sometimes- I'd rather just not know anyone, just for a moment.

Any other still in their hometown'ers feel this way?  
Misery loves company so pipe up.


Malu Keizer-Swartjes said...

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Pat Hatt said...

Got away from mine, thank god. i know what you mean, as every person wants to chat, not that there is anything wrong with it, but they never take the hint and shut the heck up either. like I can't tell it's sunny out, pfft haha

erika sorocco said...

I didn't go to the schools where I currently live, but my sister did; so while I don't see people I know whenever I leave the house, I do manage to run into just about everyone my sister has known through the years. Same difference, I suppose.

I totally get the need for a splash of anonymity - I think that's why I love big cities so much. A lot of the time, you're simply another {stylish} face in the crowd.

P.S. I'm in love with your boots and bag. :D

ff said...

The boyfriend has this problem. I think he kind of likes it, though. I grew up mostly here, but I moved to a different part of the metropolis, so I rarely run into people I know. I'd have a hard time moving back to that same area that I grew up in...I feel the exact same way. I don't need to feel like I'm being haunted everyday.

JW | PEONY said...

I totally feel you on this one. Totally.

Panty Buns said...

I know that feeling well - too well. It's a wonderful excuse for my reclusiveness. I usually do my grocery shopping in a different town, hoping to not bump into people I know and get asked how I am or do the fine, and you thing, or share things I really shouldn't. I broke the pattern and did some grocery shopping today and saw very few people I knew (relief).

| C AND C | Sarmin said...

Sometimes you wanna go where everyone doesn't know your name?! I have no no problems running into people that I went to HS with, where I live in AZ, more cows then people, I swear.

...& OMG, love you new arm candy. The color, I die! So pretty!!

Caitlin @ Candyfloss & Persie said...

@pantybuns I feel you! I often do not mind it, but sometimes I just wish I could have a cloak of invisibility! :)

Amanda @ Life with A.Co said...

I totally know what you mean.

I live in a part of the city that sounds like yours too, but grew up in the 'burbs. I don't often see people I know, but if I lived in the city, I would. Ottawa is a SMALL CITY, and people say it all the time.

Elle Sees said...

i understand!! when i visit my hometown, i gotta get dressed up to go to freakin walmart, lest ppl talk about me. so dumb.

Mandy @ In the Fashion Lane said...

I totally get it. While I don't live in the town I grew up in I have been in the same area for 10+ years. I am a huge fan of alone time. But when you love in a a community you always see acquaintances.

I ran from my small home town for anonymity. Everyone knew everything and the exaggerated story I swear before it happened. No thank you! Bright lights, big city (and beach) for this girl. :)

Unknown said...

Well since Ive just moved back home I have a feeling im about to be facing this... a lot! :/