Sometimes I think I'm fairly guilty of gearing my mind to the future and thus not appreciating the today. I have a lot of goals I want to accomplish. And I am constantly working with my husband on one very particular goal that I've been trying to achieve for awhile (Only because on edit I realize it sounds that way, I feel the need to clarify: This has nothing to do with kids). As much as I believe in the core of my gut and with every inch of my soul that these aspirations and hopes for the future are good, at the same time, I think I need to realize the gravity of what is happening every day in the life I live NOW. Not the one in the future. Not the one I write about in my journal. The life I have at this moment. And I have a zit today so this blows as the day I use this example. But to try and keep a consistent message: Omg guys, I'm just seriously #sograteful & #soblessed for this blemish.
Anyway, it's kinda like the advice they always give on "What Not To Wear" to the women who are refusing to buy stylish clothes until they get to their elusive goal weight. Thus resigning themselves to schlump because they're hoping Prince Charming (aka their better life/job/weight ... whatever that may be) to come. Stacy & Clinton always tell these women to snap out of it, wake up and appreciate what is happening today. Today is your life. "Dress" for YOUR life.
|^Celebrating one of my best friend's engagement with more best friends is joy. Pure, happy, milestone joy. And it happens in the life I have now.|
So as I constantly pursue future goals and look past what is now, I really need to remind myself that future goals that haven't happened yet don't necessarily mean that life as I know it today isn't as fulfilling as it is. It's a heaping serving of love, friends, family & memories. And only a callous, ungrateful b*tch wouldn't recognize that (while she quietly looks east to the future).
Have you ever tried to balance your 'future self' with your 'current self'? What does that look like for you?