Thursday, July 9, 2015

Fleeting Sunsets

In 2012, I attended a wedding for a longtime family friend in San Diego. It was nothing short of phenomenally fun. I had Jay there, my dad/stepmom there and a host of other clans who are and were an integral part of my life. The day after the wedding, everyone was invited to the groom's family's house for an authentic Mexican meal. We gorged on homemade tortillas, Spanish rice & a million different types of spiced meats. The sustenance was garnished with long conversations, plenty of laughter and inside jokes that had been conceived circa 1992. One of those days one will always remember due to its sheer joy.
^My ocean buddies, L-R: Jay, Patrick & Juan.

I grabbed a ride home from the house with Jay and two longtime friends. As we cruised down the roads and back to our hotel, we realized that we were at Mission Beach just as the sun was going down. Everyone in the car quickly surmised that we'd pull over and go for a sunset dip. We hastily grabbed a parking spot, hopped out and started throwing all extra clothes & baggage into the trunk. It was at that moment I realized something: I was going to float in the Pacific Ocean, under a decadent sunset, with an illuminated pier nearby- and I simply could not document it. We all decided to swim a ways out and float so there was no way to have a cell phone or a DSLR as contraband. My heart sank for a second. I voiced my concerns to the others who quickly dismissed this as the furthest thing from resembling a worry and pressured me to hurry it up (men!). So I sadly stowed my devices and sprinted off to the beach.
^Jay enjoyed the last of the sunset.

Not even 10 minutes later, we were relatively deep out into the ocean, each floating in the realm of the other but with a wide berth of space between. Everyone was having a conversation with the sky. I remember looking at my toes poking up above the quiet water as they bobbed about in unison with me and wishing I had my camera for what would have been an incredible shot. 

But I didn't.
^After we got out of the water, I ran & got my camera from the car which is what all these pictures are.

And so while sitting in the wake of something so pristine and unrivalled, I did something I rarely do: I only took it in at that moment. No documenting. No posing. No cheesing. 

Yes peace. Yes serenity. Yes gratitude for my life.

Sunset. Ocean. Calm. Friends. My love.

I could never show it to anyone again. But I'll see it for the rest of my days.


14 comments:

Jax said...

I'm not a picture taker, which I hate about myself lol. But, on the bright side, you have the memory and you enjoyed it fully without stopping to pause it. The whole situation sounds magical!!!

SMD @ lifeaccordingtosteph said...

Ah the curse of the person who loves to have a photo to match to the moment. I feel it as well.

Some of the things I remember the best are the photos I have been unable to take - even if I don't use a camera I'm still taking a photo with my brain. It happened just last week with electric lightening over the ocean. I couldn't capture it with my devices but my brain camera surely did.

Pat Hatt said...

You'll always have the memory to hold onto, even if you had to stow the tech lol

Madilyn Quinn said...

I take pictures, but sometimes it's nice to just be in the moment. Sometimes, people take TOO many pictures and don't just enjoy. It looks really pretty though!

Kristen @ See You In A Porridge said...

love this post. i love to take photos, but recently i've been trying to live in the moment as well. when we went to europe, i loved taking photos of everything but i felt like i needed to put it away for an hour or two so i could just enjoy you know?

Kate at Green Fashionista said...

I understand this all too well, but I'm trying to learn to live in the moment and not feel the need to document everything and simply enjoy it :)

Robin said...

I wish more bloggers would understand this. We don't always need a picture. Sometimes people post four pictures of table settings from different angles and I think it's ridiculous.

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@jax- lol, I have a friend who reiterates comments about pictures like you do a lot and it's always funny, ranging from "I don't get selfies.." to "I should at least try to capture more of my life..." :)

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@Steph- it's nice when your mind's eye recognizes the significance and it is engrained in you. I think that's why I remember this situation so clearly, I felt the need to.

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@Pat- this is true!

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@Madilyn- I'm very guilty of that! :)

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@Kristen- that is good of you! I was only living in the moment because I was forced to, ha. But it was nice!

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@Kate- amen!

Miss Caitlin S. said...

@Robin- lol, Robin. I'm totally guilty of that [hides under table]. I 100% understand how people feel that way but I just can't help myself! ha.