Monday, November 16, 2015

You May Say I'm A Dreamer

One of the downsides of aging is that you are wholly aware of the significance of the chaos that surrounds you. I remember dismissing news stories growing up as far away incidents that would never actually affect me. And to some sheltered extent, I can still rely on that theory. However, with the alarming rise and horrifying rate of human destruction- it's harder and harder to put my head in the sand. Especially because Jay and I spent our second to last evening in Paris at Le Carillon bar, a place I've now seen riddled with bullets alongside images of corpses resting right where we had just sat and enjoyed conversation with people we had just happily met. A grave reminder that this can happen to any of us.
^Pics I took of Paris, October 2015.

I know posting online about these travesties technically does little to solve anything. But I'm not sure what else there is to do? Every other cause that I care about has a channel in which to contribute. I care deeply for animals, Veterans & the arts - and I donate frequently to these causes in the hope that my contribution can bring about change. But what do you do about destruction such as this? What do you do about such a callous reflection of human life? Where can I send a check? There's no charity. Nothing to do to make yourself feel better. What do we do? It's a hopeless feeling and one that has plagued me in the last few years as these attacks (domestic mass shooters & terrorists abroad) have become so disgustingly frequent. What do we do?? What do we do?? I do not know.

But I do believe in the power of voices. I believe my little one has some sway if it can find the courage to jump upstream and get in the school of the other ambitious fish. To humanize is to understand. To humanize is to show compassion. And maybe that's one thing I can do in solidarity.

Last month, we sat on the steps at Sacré-Cœur, Paris. The location was across town from our flat and we had raced there in a last-minute venture in order to soak up that incredible experience together. I often take videos when we're on trips but never, ever, ever post them anywhere because they always suck and I'm just doing it for posterity. However, in light of the horrific events, I felt compelled to share this as it's a tiny glimpse into Parisian beauty:
As we left and my MIL was asked by her son if she had a good time after we had sprinted to make it there before we lost light, she said: "Whenever I'm having a bad day, for the rest of my days, I'll close my eyes and I'll be back sitting on those steps looking at beautiful Paris with all of you.

All weekend I "closed" my eyes and put myself back on those steps in solidarity. I put myself back with the beautiful Parisian people and their beautiful love of art. Their love of wine. Their love of food. Their love of sex. Their love of music. Their love of history. Their love of moments. Their love and historical embracing of the most crucial, vital, cherished components of human existence.

I don't know what to do about this continued horribleness. But I do know that it has brought me to tears more and more these last few years and I'll continue looking for a way to help.

Until then just know that, like you, I am sending all my love to everyone.

From a saddened and truly very teary heart: XOXO.
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Ashley Lillis said...

I'm still in shock over everything that happened this weekend, and can't even imagine what makes people do such terrible things like this. And to have been in one of the locations such a short time ago is incredible to me. I wish that there was something that we could do too! For now, I guess that our thoughts and prayers will have to do.

Pat Hatt said...

Yeah, there is not a whole lot one can do about such nutjob people out there, sadly. having been there must be even more of a wake up call realizing it can happen to anyone anywhere.

Kate at Green Fashionista said...

Beautiful post gurlie *hugs*, you guys along with my neighbors were there only a few weeks ago and I can't imagine how much it's hitting home for you. I will never understand how people can be filled with so much hate and no respect for human life. What I do love is seeing how the world is coming together <3

Green Fashionista

Jax said...

It's awful. I can't believe that's the place you were only a few weeks ago. It's so scary. Every year we go to Rockefeller Center to see the Christmas tree and get dinner. Then we window shop around Macy's and Lord & Taylor. My husband flat out said that we aren't doing that this year. We're so afraid that there will be another attack that it's probably best to just avoid crowds. So sad. My prayers are with all of the victims families and friends.

SMD @ lifeaccordingtosteph said...

Tragic event. beautiful words of support.

I just don't even know what to say. But I do think it's important to say something. To humanize and empathize and all of those things. Thanks for this.

Myra said...

All these attacks around the world are so gut-wrenching and heart breaking. There will never be a day that will come in which I will understand what could cause anyone to think it's okay to take another life. I'm also so extremely saddened at how because of the Paris attacks so many Syrian refugees are paying the price and being denied any place of refuge & being treated as if the attacks were their fault. It's all just too much heartbreak & tragedy.

julie @ said...

Beautiful post... It's disheartening with how we are killing each other. I feel so helpless. In some ways, all we can do is continue embracing everyone's difference and accepting them for who they are. We shouldn't make blanket generalizations and further alienate those who fall under these blanket statements. Spread the love to every one.

Amanda - Voyage of the MeeMee said...

I thought about you when I heard about this. So scary and senseless.

Caitlin @ Candyfloss & Persie said...

^agree, agree with all of the above! xo <3

Kaitlyn Danielle said...

The atmosphere in Paris is amazing. It's so sad to see violence sweeping our nation. My heart goes out to Paris, and to the American exchange student who lost her life. My heart aches for her and her family. I've thought about studying abroad numerous times, but never once has the thought crossed my mind, that I could lose my life to a terrorist attack while abroad. Ugh. It's horrible and devastating.

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