Monday, August 8, 2016

32

Today, I turned 32.

That's insane for me to even write out. How am I 32?!?! Sometimes I still feel like this girl...

And while we're at it: this girl too...
^those bangs... like... thanks for "loving" me Mom & Dad

but then I realize how saddled I am with the normal stress of adulthood and I think ... meh, 32 seems about right.

My oldest friend in all the land is my Shanin. We met in 1st grade and we realized as we walked home from school on day one that our backyards in our same-floor-plan homes adjoined. We were 6-years-old. And I still remember introducing her to my parents. They were so old. So, so old. We were so, so young. I now realize that they were 33. There is truly nothing crazier to me than that. Here I am, one year off of my "old" parents.

In my early twenties, my vision of my 30s was probably a bit different than the reality. I envisioned myself being married around 24 (lol, so glad that was not the case), kids, house, dog, goats, career, etc. I still feel like most of that good stuff is yet to come and I can't wait to experience it with my puppy and husband in tow. And make no mistake - the goats will be a reality. I really think God sent them to us as natural anti-depressants. Because who wouldn't benefit from this in their front lawn!?!? I don't think that Jay realizes that goats are a certainty in his life at some point and I really can't stress enough how hellbent I am on making it happen. But back to my birthday since I'm now talking about goats for some reason...

There are many ways in which I'm proud of myself for where my life has gone. I feel like I try to let those close to me know just how important they are and how much I notice and cherish all their little nuances. I think that's crucially important and I hope I'm always doing it right (though there is always room for improvement). Life is all about these little nuances and all the little ways in which others contribute to your overall joy. I'm proud of where my career is at. I'm at a job that I've worked hard to move up in and I see a fruitful path ahead. I'm happy with my own personal growth. I've experienced severe heartbreak, loss, extreme lows and extreme highs. I've tried to not coast on what always has been and challenge myself in ways that speak to personal growth. Though I still feel that I can do more in this arena - either with physical changes (such as things like moves to new places) or mental ones (such as shifting my vantage points on issues).

I've always been one who speaks highly of chapters and the value in each one. My twenties were there for a significant reason and I have no qualms with my decision to spend many of them dancing the night away with my friends. Heck, I still like to spend my time that way. And after a wedding weekend with my best friends where we all were adorned in beautiful gowns with done-up hair and manicured nails yet still laughed our faces off at quietly-muttered bathroom humor in one another's ear at the most crucial moments - I realize how much I'm always okay being a bit young. How ridiculously boring to always play the grown card.

But here I am. I'm 32. 32! Happy. Looking for areas to grow always. Seeking for a way to consistently contribute to the community at large in a fashion that's more time-based vs. monetary based (my current path). And still liking myself and who I've become, loving all my people and exposing myself to things that make me question what I call true.

If you haven't noticed from my last post, I'm actually a bit EXTREMELY busy (we're in Oregon this week for weddings, birthday parties, family time, etc. then once back in SF, moving apartments immediately) and will probably be back on here in about a week plus or so.

Wishing you a wonderful one. A wonderful, wonderful one. Cheers to another trip around the mf'ing sun. I read somewhere that getting old is a privilege bestowed on the lucky. Ain't that the truth? I will try to remind myself of that as the hair gets grayer and the skin gets a little bit saggier. :)
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16 comments:

julie @ jewelswandering.com said...

Happy birthday, gorgeous!! 32 was a good year, I hope it is for you as well... I wouldn't mind still being there sometimes, but I realize, hey!! It's all good...! Enjoy your travels and "see ya" next week!! xx

Jaclyn said...

Happy birthday!!!! It's crazy and sometimes a little depressing how quickly time flies. Wishing you the best year. :)

Nadine Lynn said...

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! I turn 33 next week. Ahhhh I am your old parents! lol! I remember when I was really young saying something like "Oh my daddy is old, he is at least 40!!" In reality, it was when he was in his late 20's and now here I am 33 and pregnant and my little girl really will be able to see my mommy and daddy are at least in their 40's. Yikes. Anyways, I love what you had to say about staying young. I hope you have a fabulous day!!!

SMD @ lifeaccordingtosteph said...

Hope you had a fabulous birthday!

Getting older is an absolute privilege. I'm glad you don't take it for granted!

Ashley @ The Wandering Weekenders said...

Happy happy birthday! I still look at myself and wonder how in the world that I'm almost 30! It just doesn't seem possible! But like you said, getting older is a privilege for us lucky few, so we definitely enjoy getting older, even if we don't want to!

Mattie @ Northwest Native said...

Happy birthday! And you are so right about goats. Some day I need a house with lots of property so I can have goats to frolic with!!!

MilitaryPugWife said...

Happy Birthday pretty girl!!!

Pat Hatt said...

Happy Birthday! Maybe this will be the year you get the goats lol

Kristen @ See You In A Porridge said...

aww happy belated birthday! those bangs are legit.

Brittany said...

Happy belated birthday! I hope you had the best one yet! It's amazing how "old" we're getting now. I always feel that way when I watch sports and realize that most of the athletes are now younger than me. Yikes. You're right, though - it's a gift.

Andrea Nine said...

Aww happy belated birthday to one of the coolest, hippest and beautiful gals in all of blog land! I hope it was spectacular for you! I have to say that my early 30s were some of my most favorite times my whole life! Soak it up girlie...you're awesome!

Ellen Ross | Ask Away said...

So first off happy birthday! And also - my boyfriend turned 32 yesterday too! :)
XO Ellen from Ask Away
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Jaime @ laviejaime said...

Happy belated birthday!! Hope it was a great one!

Elle Sees said...

I know I'm a week late (I say celebrate all month long) but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! May this be your best year yet!!!

Optimistic Existentialist said...

First of all, Happy Birthday!! Secondly, I would have never, in a million years, guessed you to be 32?? How in the world do you age so gracefully?

Karrine Beasley said...

I'm super late on this but... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Wow, when did we become these 26 and 32 year old people!? ;)
We've managed to fit so many awesome things into our years so far, and I can't wait to see what else is to come!!
Thanks for letting me follow along with all your adventures!
Hope Jay and Chandler spoiled you :) <3 xx